Okay I'm partially back to blogging.. Kidding, I'm just blogging because I can't sleep even though its 2am. Need to sleep soon though as I'm gonna go out tmr! And A levels are finally over!!!!! *confetti* but honestly, I'm at a loss of what to do now. Not that I want to study but, I feel like there's too many things to do and I don't know where should I start off with first, ah. Right. Alot of activities and things to catch up on, hopefully I'll spend this holiday well!:)
Shall make a list of things I would want to accomplish this holiday and see how many I manage to meet!! It's like a challenge, and my new year resolution for once won't have something that goes 'Get good grades' ;) just maybe something like get into either SMU or NUS? hahaha, bleh. shall dump studies and results aside now and just focus on getting my life back:) kekeke.
this is weird but i've got this really empty feeling right now. maybe cause I dont know what to do with my life.. idk this is bad. Had a traumatising experience today also, k I exaggerated alot but still!!! okay shall get out of my house and head for retail therapy! shall buy pretty clothes and stuff for Korea trip, prom, cuz wedding and just everyday stuff! i think i have a very disorientated train of thoughts.. crap:/
It's scary, when you've fallen so deep into something thats impossible. And knowing it but yet unable to control yourself. I feel like I'm walking down a suicidal path still keeping hopes up even though I know very well what lies at the end of this road.
and this kind of love isn't rational.
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