Finally got back my life even though I haven't been studying hard, funny how no one buys that. Never felt more screwed in life, like as though I'm just gonna take yet another exam, really Shermaine? Okay, anyway I knew I would end up here, I chose this so now I need to take responsibility for it and have back up plans:)
when life gives you lemons, squeeze them back!
Don't believe that I'll be screwed just because I screwed A levels up, no way.
Am still waiting for my self-written letter we wrote back in India last year, 1 year seem to have flown by. Vaguely remember that I wrote it with the aim of motivating myself for A level, think I'll have a good laugh when I receive it in Dec, irony irony. but still, can't wait for Dec and KOREA!^^v Planning a to-do-list and striking them off one by one, enthusiasm that was never found in studies;)
Lost track of date, lost track of time. Getting hopes up and then watching it crumble, I think I must be one of the most petty person on Earth. And how an unknown number with a mistakenly sent SMS reminded me. Were you perhaps behind it? Life is really a bitch, maybe one day I'll be able to not shun from you when I see you. Or maybe you won't shun from me either. Me and my guilty conscience, it was all my fault wasn't it? Should never have thought it could be more, should never have judge and should never have let go. I think I found the reason why I could never face you again, because I have fallen short of your expectations. I don't want you to see who I am now but be that some girl that you used to know. So until one day when I'm finally back to who I used to be, may we not meet. After all, we haven't after all this time. Be happy.
Need to stop watching dramas, it's crazy to finish Queen Seon Deok and My Princess within 2 days while that huge pile of MCQs is roaring for my attention. Focus focus focus. Need to get high marks for mcq to pull my shitty ass grades up. My last final hope, don't break.
You are the apple of my eye.
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