nostalgic

Ohmygod i'm so freaking tired that i feel like i can just flop onto the bed and pass out. Can't believe i was able to sit and not get distracted for that almost 4hour long paper this morning... surprise surprise! hope i'll do okay well, i need to.

why am i tired? its not like i have a grueling training schedule.. well, i do have a huge ass pile of work to do, which i kept procrastinating so i can't blame anyone for it, but i still can't get my even bigger ass to move and do it, ugh ._.

someone keeps reminding me there's only 5 months left to holymoly a levels, yes dude F I V E. so each subject has approximately 1 month for me to study, ideal huh? but it doesn't work that way, i foresee myself spending late nights jamming up phonelines, causing a crash in the portal and praying to all gods that i know of to nope, not do well but pray that i fall sick so i have more time to study, sigh

i think my friends hate me:'(

they keep saying that i'm lazy. its not like i'm being annoying or anything whaaaat, okay fine, i do feel guilty but i really can't get myself to move.

i'm just like that, somehow i just can't change, if i'm a mugger then there's something wrong so i'm sorry i'm not the first person you want to work with in a group, that i annoy you when i copy your homework and be distracted all day in lectures/tutorial.

maybe i have OCD... i should go get checked

sighhh. my life sounds horrible uh?

i think there's something wrong with me.. sometimes i feel like i may just die any minute, like my heart may just stop. oh god, whats wrong with me?

then again, shouldn't i not fear death so much anymore?

since i've a close shave with it before.. so close that it scares me now to think of it.

on another note, elections results are taking so long:/

i wanna sleep but i wanna hear news from aljunied grc!

oh wells.

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